Little Moments of Zen

Do you ever get those moments of zen....nirvana....whatever you want to call it...do you ever just have the sudden realization of truth. The world seems to slow down, and you are in the moment....

I don't know if I like it or if it scares the shit out of me. It's a confusing feeling really.

It's hard to explain...these moments of zen..... It seems to make so much sense at the moment, and then it begins to fade away.


Their is one moment of zen that has stuck with me throughout the years....

I think it was the summer after my freshmen year of high school....

I was away for summer break visiting my dad-I lived the rest of the year a thousand miles away with my mom. I was sitting at "the drop zone" a place where my dad went skydiving. I was bored, its not much fun at a DZ unless you're the one jumping out of the planes. So I was sitting in a chair in the sun reading Moby Dick. And then...a butterfly....landed next to me.... Curious, I put my hand down gently next to the butterfly, and it walked into my hand. I picked it up and rested my hand in my lap. The butterfly sat in my hand...and then about five minutes later it took off into the sky. It fluttered slowly, and I followed it. For several minutes I meandered around a grove of apple trees, following the butterfly....And in that moment of zen...I wasn't sure if I was the butterfly or the girl. I realized in that instant, that somehow we were one and the same. I was that, and it was me.
The butterfly flew away, and I returned to my book.
On a side note: I spent the rest of the summer seeing butterflies everywhere I went, and even began to count them after a while. No joke, for several weeks straight I counted between 30-80 butterflies every single day. And then one day...it just stopped.


I am beginning to think that insanity and enlightenment are very closely linked.

My moment of zen today....
Dog=God
God=Me
Me=Dog
Playing with my dog, I had a similar expierence like the one I had with the butterfly. I felt as if my dog was an extention of me, a piece of my being.